Really happy when i received one CNY sms from one of my army subordinates even after like 8 long years of non contact! Thinking back, i was really very strict with them, bringing them running every alternate day and doing area cleaning every single work day of their 1 year or more with the SAF. I must have not been very friendly to them, as they all addressed me by rank and surname and not as friends as with the other commanders. I have never went out with them to celebrate anything nor go play together after work or nights out... i do not know, maybe it does not feel very right when i have to be responsible for them, playing together or cultivating that bond as people would suggest.
Thinking back again, and even as now, I do not feel being friendly nor brotherly is something i can display. The weight of responsibility weighs heavily; you can even say that i want things to be as such.
If everything ends, it must be that i have done my best.
Regrets i do not have when i think back of those days.. we have achieved things nobody else did, imagine the entire section passing IPPT when nobody else did. Imagine no extra duties, no quarrels between peers, high quality of work...
Though how many treasure the things they learnt then?
Maybe one of them did :)
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