11 August 2007
10 August 2007
08 August 2007
被吊起来的心
Really want to say thanks to R who never fails to encourage when i am very down. I think it's so bad that i lose the spirit when i walk into my form class. The connection seems lost. I heard and i understand about the theory of putting fertilizer and water and the part about them getting handy in the future but sometimes certain things just seem to hang inside, just like a sharp metal hook gagging up the heart, and you feel so helplessly trapped and tangled... does anyone feel that way before?
06 August 2007
Happenings
So what was the matter? I think i have a very good relationship with my form class all these while. In fact, i think my form class is a very sweet and nice class. They don't create trouble and they are a sensible lot generally. Why generally? Because some people inside are just not behaving the way they are supposed to.
Homework, this is a big issue. Behaviour and attitude towards excellence. I think our class has a big issue. All other subjects aside, none of my assignments given to them has ever got a 100% hit in returns. So what is the point of being nice?
By constantly nagging? It probably works, but it burdens a great deal on me. When something is constantly on your mind, it stresses you a lot.
Recently it's beginning to take a toil on my health. All the constant migraines and gastric problems... all as a result of accumulated stress and deadlines. It doesn't help when the school is pushing for SEM reports, SQC status and EV on top of managing sec 4 teachers for RME and the grueling admin work for Founder's Day. All the admin with the entire school of form teachers took me a whole week of stress and many many PR problems to resolve. I don't like all these things but how can i ignore? If i let go of the absentees, comments will come that i am irresponsible. If i do not let them go, people will comment that i am doing extra work... so what is a man got to do?
And CCA? It's a really big shock that our cadets are so bad in their drills. They cannot even stand properly for long. I still remember the times whereby 50 push-ups at one go is nothing of a challenge. Nowadays we have safety guidelines and policies. Maybe it is the proper thing to have guidelines, but i wonder exactly how much we are doing for our next generation.
Why do i bother to meet the ncos and ask them to do work when at the end of the day, nothing seems to come back? Are your words just worthless or they think you are cracking jokes? Or they simply give up or refuse to attain excellence?
Just what is the thing with excellence that puts people away? Why are we so afraid of failure? Why are we all so irresponsible? Why can we not go ahead and face up to challenges?
What happened to all the time that i am supposed to do marking? What happened to students nowadays that they do not come together and overcome problems together?
What happened to all the people who said that they would help? What happened to all the zeal and the passion? What happened to love? What is happening to our world?
Homework, this is a big issue. Behaviour and attitude towards excellence. I think our class has a big issue. All other subjects aside, none of my assignments given to them has ever got a 100% hit in returns. So what is the point of being nice?
By constantly nagging? It probably works, but it burdens a great deal on me. When something is constantly on your mind, it stresses you a lot.
Recently it's beginning to take a toil on my health. All the constant migraines and gastric problems... all as a result of accumulated stress and deadlines. It doesn't help when the school is pushing for SEM reports, SQC status and EV on top of managing sec 4 teachers for RME and the grueling admin work for Founder's Day. All the admin with the entire school of form teachers took me a whole week of stress and many many PR problems to resolve. I don't like all these things but how can i ignore? If i let go of the absentees, comments will come that i am irresponsible. If i do not let them go, people will comment that i am doing extra work... so what is a man got to do?
And CCA? It's a really big shock that our cadets are so bad in their drills. They cannot even stand properly for long. I still remember the times whereby 50 push-ups at one go is nothing of a challenge. Nowadays we have safety guidelines and policies. Maybe it is the proper thing to have guidelines, but i wonder exactly how much we are doing for our next generation.
Why do i bother to meet the ncos and ask them to do work when at the end of the day, nothing seems to come back? Are your words just worthless or they think you are cracking jokes? Or they simply give up or refuse to attain excellence?
Just what is the thing with excellence that puts people away? Why are we so afraid of failure? Why are we all so irresponsible? Why can we not go ahead and face up to challenges?
What happened to all the time that i am supposed to do marking? What happened to students nowadays that they do not come together and overcome problems together?
What happened to all the people who said that they would help? What happened to all the zeal and the passion? What happened to love? What is happening to our world?
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The difference of being a very fierce teacher and a very nurturing teacher is when you have to put up a front and do things that you dislike. The pressure is building and its of no avail when your students put up a battle with you. Endless amount of tracking, always remembering that you are to punish them when actually it wasn't your intention. When will they see that it's always the matter and not them? Or perhaps that they need to do it right so unpleasant things will not happen?
Maybe there's more than just school that's causing those not-hardworking problems but are studies not the most important right now?
Maybe there's more than just school that's causing those not-hardworking problems but are studies not the most important right now?
31 July 2007
Sinful Japanese Salad
Very nice jap restaurant with nice food... most importantly with nice service!
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