12 Years

Feels very touched to know many people are gathering to celebrate my birthday, especially when they are people of whom i place great priority in my life.

Recently i have many thoughts about life and human relationships.

So fragile and so transient, so many people have came and went.

I remember the greatest disappointment i had was with the batch of 1996. The greatest moments were spent with them too. I will never forget the tears some of them shed when we were to part that particular year, yet equally indelible were the distant look in their eyes year later when our paths crossed yet again.

I thought, why are people so devoid of feelings? Why do you give out so much only to have strangers looking at you in the eyes when you meet them again?

And so the wound festered and it has been almost 12 years since.

And then i thought to myself, how many people can love unconditionally to strangers or non-kin?

Isn't it a blessing to be able to give than to be one who is cold on the insides as well as outsides?

So i guess, 12 years of soul-searching, today can be a conclusion, or at least part of one.