Feels very touched to know many people are gathering to celebrate my birthday, especially when they are people of whom i place great priority in my life.
Recently i have many thoughts about life and human relationships.
So fragile and so transient, so many people have came and went.
I remember the greatest disappointment i had was with the batch of 1996. The greatest moments were spent with them too. I will never forget the tears some of them shed when we were to part that particular year, yet equally indelible were the distant look in their eyes year later when our paths crossed yet again.
I thought, why are people so devoid of feelings? Why do you give out so much only to have strangers looking at you in the eyes when you meet them again?
And so the wound festered and it has been almost 12 years since.
And then i thought to myself, how many people can love unconditionally to strangers or non-kin?
Isn't it a blessing to be able to give than to be one who is cold on the insides as well as outsides?
So i guess, 12 years of soul-searching, today can be a conclusion, or at least part of one.
31 May 2007
30 May 2007
28 May 2007
SPF NPCC Badge Award Ceremony 2007
又是一批得奖者。
有时回顾下来，真怀疑多少知道老师们后面所付出的心血？
以前还很介意，
但后来却不怎么理睬了……毕业典礼也是如此不是吗？
想，只要问心无愧就已足够。
何须一切都盼望得到回报呢？
［当然这次mr koh付出许多心血，本人只是写他们的推荐评语罢了］
24 May 2007
Really Random Thoughts
Heard from Nic that "Pirates of the Carribean" is a lousy show, though i felt the trailers looked exciting enough? So is it really lousy or maybe not that bad if we are to watch it with an open mind?
Today was PTM and this time round i made effort to make the meetings less heavy, and try to keep the sessions short and sweet. Instruction given to all teachers are to be aware of the platform for meeting, offer opinion from a professional point of view and try not to teach parenting skills.
Though i agree in certain aspects, but i guess education sometimes transcends more than just professionalism. I heard a teacher friend told me that teaching should be about touching lives (which i agree very much), so what can we do if we were to stop at just academics?
We were quite worried about the new taking over batch of NCOs, about whether they can discharge their duties well, and many plans were made to ensure a smooth takeover. It was a great feeling to know there were really concerned individuals like mr koh and miss lee and even raphael and melvin who made special time for this... i think good results will come if we all work towards a common goal.
Recently as i made research about my tibet trip i read about this african proverb about this sentence: "if you want to go fast, go alone. If you want to go far, go together." Such a simple sentence but made so much meaning. It's especially so when it sorta sums up my mental state of mind recently, about understanding everything that has been happening around me so far.... about Kais and his CO in nyjc, about working as a team in mshsnpcc and so on... yeah... i feel if we really want to go far, we really need to go together. Long the time it might take, but it will be time worth taking.
As for passion, i guess we normally have to find ways and means to relive it... there will be times when all feels hopeless and lost. There will be times when we feel nothing is worth doing, but as higher powers made us be, we can always reconsider our possibilities over time. We all have choices though circumstances might not always be what we expect them to be. So choices are what we should make, and results, if they are good will be bonuses! Happy if they are so and move ahead if they are not... hmm.. isn't this the term the main theme from "Meet the Robinsons"?
And did i say i have got butterflies in my stomach because i feel quite ill-prepared to go tibet?
Today was PTM and this time round i made effort to make the meetings less heavy, and try to keep the sessions short and sweet. Instruction given to all teachers are to be aware of the platform for meeting, offer opinion from a professional point of view and try not to teach parenting skills.
Though i agree in certain aspects, but i guess education sometimes transcends more than just professionalism. I heard a teacher friend told me that teaching should be about touching lives (which i agree very much), so what can we do if we were to stop at just academics?
We were quite worried about the new taking over batch of NCOs, about whether they can discharge their duties well, and many plans were made to ensure a smooth takeover. It was a great feeling to know there were really concerned individuals like mr koh and miss lee and even raphael and melvin who made special time for this... i think good results will come if we all work towards a common goal.
Recently as i made research about my tibet trip i read about this african proverb about this sentence: "if you want to go fast, go alone. If you want to go far, go together." Such a simple sentence but made so much meaning. It's especially so when it sorta sums up my mental state of mind recently, about understanding everything that has been happening around me so far.... about Kais and his CO in nyjc, about working as a team in mshsnpcc and so on... yeah... i feel if we really want to go far, we really need to go together. Long the time it might take, but it will be time worth taking.
As for passion, i guess we normally have to find ways and means to relive it... there will be times when all feels hopeless and lost. There will be times when we feel nothing is worth doing, but as higher powers made us be, we can always reconsider our possibilities over time. We all have choices though circumstances might not always be what we expect them to be. So choices are what we should make, and results, if they are good will be bonuses! Happy if they are so and move ahead if they are not... hmm.. isn't this the term the main theme from "Meet the Robinsons"?
And did i say i have got butterflies in my stomach because i feel quite ill-prepared to go tibet?
18 May 2007
4C continued
Of cos i dun hate u guys!
Actually i think you guys are quite a very hardworking class generally. Just that maybe more zeal is needed to gain excellence.
As for the theory that certain things are too late, i think nothing is ever too late if we do not give up on it.
I guess its hard to translate this though or desire that i hope students in the school should acquire. I guess we all face immense pressure as students nowadays, with all the work and the extra curriculums that we have.
Sometimes even family life is sacrificed for such purposes. But maybe that is how singapore is doomed to operate, a country with no natural resources, working hard and preserving that kind of spirit is precisely the thing that we must cultivate in order to survive.
But in all this mad rush, i hope we all can find the balance to make it through and for this, feel free to come and talk to me!
haha last of all, please work hard for your chinese Os and did i say i love u guys? lol
Actually i think you guys are quite a very hardworking class generally. Just that maybe more zeal is needed to gain excellence.
As for the theory that certain things are too late, i think nothing is ever too late if we do not give up on it.
I guess its hard to translate this though or desire that i hope students in the school should acquire. I guess we all face immense pressure as students nowadays, with all the work and the extra curriculums that we have.
Sometimes even family life is sacrificed for such purposes. But maybe that is how singapore is doomed to operate, a country with no natural resources, working hard and preserving that kind of spirit is precisely the thing that we must cultivate in order to survive.
But in all this mad rush, i hope we all can find the balance to make it through and for this, feel free to come and talk to me!
haha last of all, please work hard for your chinese Os and did i say i love u guys? lol
To The Other Half of 4C
The problem with the O Levels is that marks are bound to be different no matter you like it or not. Although prudent steps have been taken to manage and standardize the marks, there is no guarantee that the marks are going to be the same.
Does that mean the end?
Low morale?
I think the right thing to do is not to ask for higher marks but rather be grateful that your teacher takes pain to mark and point out your weaknesses.
I think that is something that you should learn and make changes for.
As for the Os, the better way is to work even harder and make sure that you will be at your best when it comes to the examination day.
That is the more important thing to do.
As for the marks, the only purpose they serve now is to help in your gauging of strengths and weaknesses; so please be focused in your endeavours and score well in your examinations.
I have said it before and will like to point it out again, all of you are capable of distinctions and so please work hard for Os and get it over and done with.
Does that mean the end?
Low morale?
I think the right thing to do is not to ask for higher marks but rather be grateful that your teacher takes pain to mark and point out your weaknesses.
I think that is something that you should learn and make changes for.
As for the Os, the better way is to work even harder and make sure that you will be at your best when it comes to the examination day.
That is the more important thing to do.
As for the marks, the only purpose they serve now is to help in your gauging of strengths and weaknesses; so please be focused in your endeavours and score well in your examinations.
I have said it before and will like to point it out again, all of you are capable of distinctions and so please work hard for Os and get it over and done with.
14 May 2007
Mid Year Results Analysis
After going through all the results in which was compiled after marking, i realised the best results were from my form class!
I have 12 distinctions in the overall results, which is sorta surreal... cos 4C (2005) has got 13 distinctions then... and they are supposed to be a better class too... hmm... hmm....
4C had 2, and they were supposedly the not-so-good half of the class, though i had expected better results from them.
Hmm... how many distinctions could they have managed if they were under me? (ceterus paribus that is)
3E and 3I have only 1!
3H has ZERO! Though the consolation is that their MSG (mean subject grade) is lower, i.e. they actually do better than 3E and 3I overall.
oh well... so much for my caring-teaching-side and very-fierce-side.
Maybe being nice and naggy has the best results, as results show from my form class?
Or are there other factors?
I have 12 distinctions in the overall results, which is sorta surreal... cos 4C (2005) has got 13 distinctions then... and they are supposed to be a better class too... hmm... hmm....
4C had 2, and they were supposedly the not-so-good half of the class, though i had expected better results from them.
Hmm... how many distinctions could they have managed if they were under me? (ceterus paribus that is)
3E and 3I have only 1!
3H has ZERO! Though the consolation is that their MSG (mean subject grade) is lower, i.e. they actually do better than 3E and 3I overall.
oh well... so much for my caring-teaching-side and very-fierce-side.
Maybe being nice and naggy has the best results, as results show from my form class?
Or are there other factors?
09 May 2007
Plea or Cry
Its strange that our unit of today was not the unit of the yesteryears. Pride and Honour, strong sense of belonging from the cadets, people who still remember and make their feelings known by coming back to help, even if there was really nothing to gain back.
We reminisce about the past when people kept to their committments and were really physically around all the while, be it difficulties or arguments -- all were clear and all were willing to give and get, and things were really smooth then. There would be arguments but there were also camaraderie, and at the end of it all, there was espirit de corps.
People of today -- sometimes we wonder if direct gratification were the only thing that were on their minds. Or perhaps glory or maybe even the impression of the kind of power that they should have when they observed certain things in the past. Perhaps some of us seemed very enpowered to do things, but how many people actually see the pains and the hardwork behind it all? Who knew of the sorrows?
Ask not why things are not as before but instead look at how things are and should be. Compare not the past with the present but let it be a good source of information or perhaps experience.
And rules or the system, are they not makeups of the human mind? Rightfully though they should be adhered, have we also sometimes perhaps forgot that humans are still humans afterall?
Adapt is what we should be doing, understanding is what we must achieve. The world is changing, so we should be moving along. Look far, perceive in depth and maybe, just maybe, things will present themselves in ways we could have never imagined.
We reminisce about the past when people kept to their committments and were really physically around all the while, be it difficulties or arguments -- all were clear and all were willing to give and get, and things were really smooth then. There would be arguments but there were also camaraderie, and at the end of it all, there was espirit de corps.
People of today -- sometimes we wonder if direct gratification were the only thing that were on their minds. Or perhaps glory or maybe even the impression of the kind of power that they should have when they observed certain things in the past. Perhaps some of us seemed very enpowered to do things, but how many people actually see the pains and the hardwork behind it all? Who knew of the sorrows?
Ask not why things are not as before but instead look at how things are and should be. Compare not the past with the present but let it be a good source of information or perhaps experience.
And rules or the system, are they not makeups of the human mind? Rightfully though they should be adhered, have we also sometimes perhaps forgot that humans are still humans afterall?
Adapt is what we should be doing, understanding is what we must achieve. The world is changing, so we should be moving along. Look far, perceive in depth and maybe, just maybe, things will present themselves in ways we could have never imagined.
02 May 2007
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