Disgustingly long day again...

Today's like terrible man.. lessons all the way and only 1 period for a break and that break has to be spent on detention because a certain class has decided to play the are-you-going-to-make-me-clean-the-class-or-you-give-up game.

And of course I took up the challenge.

In the end, there were still people who ran away.

Running...

I used to ask this question: why is it so difficult to do the right thing?

Why do people litter the class?

Why are people ever so stubborn?

Oh well.. guess sometimes action speaks louder than words. Hmm .. come to think of it, were it be speaking through action? The dirtier the class, the louder the message?

Or if you were asked to single people out, they see you as someone who wants to sabotage them. But isn't singling out of the guilty a better way to do things than to punish the whole class when there are innocent people around?

How come people value loyalty over righteousness?

Or moral courage?

Or suppose i surrender?

What kind of a message would it give them?

I guess the action does really speaks louder than words.

..........

And then it was a short break, then meeting for the FMS, future Marist School thingy.. long long meeting.. then another short break, then unit activity, in between I met unresolved people, i met people who are not willing to face challengers and difficulties, i met people who do not know what are the right things to do...

seems like there are many such people nowadays, or sometimes i wonder if the world was always like that?

baffling huh.. .

And by the time i am done with the attendance, it was 7pm++ already.. how many of such days can i stand man?

hiaz...

Woah...

Wow never thought that i would have finished so much marking over the long weekend.. but thinking back, it's a really kill-off from my private time.

And to think some people can really just take their minds off work once they knock off.

Don't be a loser! Some would say, who ask you to take up this job! haha.. whatever..

Gambate!

And so it has finally come to a balanced point.

A lot of things going through lately, disappointments, gratitude and mixed feelings... hatred, disgust, dislike, achievement.. it's been all a big mix-up.

For those who are worrying about me, don't worry, I am still fighting fit!

As I told a colleague/friend, it is something that I have to go through if I were to conquer this phase in teaching.

Sometimes, it's not really about what we have done but what we have attempted to. Not to say that we are not trying to do the right things and making sure that they work, but I guess its rather about whether we have tried our best.

For that, as long as the conscience is clear, I am happy already :)

So let's all fight for what we believe, be it in big or small ways. As long as we have tried, the rest is up to providence!

战斗

Is it me or some students are just too far away from adults in bids to find themselves? How can we reach them when they are so far away?

How much energy can a teacher spare?

How much regrets will we cultivate in a lifetime or teaching?

Is teaching a meaningful job or its a depressing one?

Life itself maybe is equally perplexing.

Be positive, as my colleague says, and we will be able to overcome all odds. Cause if we who have crossed the bridge and not turn back to help, how will they ever cross if they should fall?

变迁

haha how come students of nowadays all don't seem to want you to talk to them like an adult or teacher?

Are they already learnt of the craft of life or they are too stressed to hear what is to come?

Or they want you to be a friend rather than a teacher?

Share their troubles instead of guiding them?

Has the world really changed that much?

End

If all seems lost and overwhelming, all I need to do is to look at the things you say and I will feel all powered once more.